2009

Ito ang huling araw ng taon na to.. kung iisipin kong mabuti marami-rami din ang nangyari... halo-halong pangyayari na minsa'y naging parte ng pagkatao ko..

Mula nung Enero ng taon na to naging maayos naman ang lahat hanggang Marso.. naalala ko gumagawa pa kami ng thesis ng mga panahong ito.. natatakot pa kung makaka-gradweyt ng kolehiyo at kung papasa ba kami sa lahat ng subjects.. ito ang pinaka-kritikal na panahon noong nag-aaral pa ko.. ito rin yung mga panahon na pumapasok kami sa eskwela at naghahanda na sa pagtatapos.. Ito rin yung mga panahong ine-enjoy na namin ang buhay estudyante at tila parang gustong bumalik sa taong nagsisimula ang lahat. Sobrang hectic din kami nung mga panahon na to at naghahanda para sa Hildegard Awards na taon taon eh inaayos ng mga MassCom students na magtatapos bilang last project sa kurso.. Naidaos ang lahat ng masaya.. eto rin yung panahong binigyan kami ng magandang pamamaalam ng aming mga guro mula first year college. yun ung SEND OFF party sa amin na tila alam nilang kakayanin na namin harapin ang indutriya at buhay sa labas ng eskwelahan. Salamat sa lahat ng itinuro sa amin dahil lahat ng iyon ay nananatili sa amin lahat. Mabuhay ang MassCom ng St. Scho!!;)

Pagtapos ng kolehiyo sabi ko sa sarili ko papahinga naman muna ako.. siguro mga dalawang buwan at mageenjoy muna ako sa buhay ko.. hindi ko inakala na ang dalawang buwan ay magiging tatlo, apat, hanggang siyam na buwan at wala pa din akong trabaho. sabagay, yung mga buwan na iyon ginugol ko sa pag-aalaga sa pamangkin ko at lagi ko nakakasama ang pamilya ko.. kaso aun nga.. parang sumobra? hahahhaha! kung babalikan ko ang taon.. sobra akong naging choosy sa trabaho.. madami akong tinanggihan na trabaho at mejo meron din na hindi ako tinanggap dahil hindi naman sila hiring.. di ko akalain eto na pala ang totoong mundo.. ang hirap ng buhay.. ngaun nakikita ko na sana hindi ako tuluyan lamunin ng pag-hihirap na to.. tiyaga tiyaga lang at magkakatrabaho din ng para sakin.. ehehhe...

Ngayon ko naiisip ang mga nasayang na oras at panahon na wala akong ginagawa.. na pa-easy easy lang.. kaya ako naiinis dahil hindi ako sanay ng walang ginagawa kaya lang anong magagawa ko kung walang trabaho na gusto ko.. kaya sa darating na taon na to isa sa mga new year's resolution ko ay ang hindi maging choosy sa mga bagay bagay.. hahahah! aayusin ko na buhay ko.. sigurado yan..

Ngunit madami din naman magaganda ang nangyari sa akin.. dami ko nakilala bagong tao na ngaun ay parte na ng buhay ko.. masaya ako sa kung ano man ang ibigay sakin.. at nagpapasalamat ako na ksabay ng mga bagong tao sa buhay ko ay nananatili ang mga lumang taong sobrang mahalaga sa akin.. anjan ang barkada na hanggang ngaun kahit madami na ang nangyri ay nananatili pa din masaya at makulet..

Sa isang buong taon hindi natin alam ang mangyayari sa buhay natin kaya dapat harapin na lang natin ito ng buong puso.. kaya ako.. iiwan ko na sa 2009 ang lahat ng bigat sa puso ko at magsisimula ng bago sa bagong taon.. hahahha!

Goodluck sa akin.. paalam 2009! salamat sa lahat..;)

TODAY I FOUND LOVE AGAIN

TODAY I FOUND LOVE AGAIN

Today I found love again
Writing my happiness with this pen
I’m telling everyone this magical event
That the one up above has sent

With no particular reason
Just right for this special season
Today I found love again
Through the most impossible way it can

It just felt so right
And I want to hold it so tight
In this world so full of pain
Today I found love again

I cannot explain how it happen
But today I found love again
More than what you know and what I know
This makes my heart glow

*rizza*
12.28.2009
14:09

raket

just because i quit from my so called "raket"
here i am again..

back to my same old story..

hoping to have a stable job this 2010..;)

24th of December '09

A lot of people would tell me that Christmas is just for kids but i definitely don't agree with them.

Christmas like i said is my most favorite time of the year so eventhough I got nothing for Christmas I still manage to enjoy it. I love looking around the corner staring at the Christmas trees, Christmas lights and other decorations. I also love listening to Christmas carols and singing with it.

last night was a lot of fun.. Noche Buena was so simple yet so cool.. I was so full last night but the best part of this year's Christmas celebration... hmmmm... after 3 years we went to mass together again. papa, kuya, ina, baby xi and me was there to give thanks for the coming of our savior. For me, that was one of the best..

HAPPY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!!! enjoy the season.. God bless..;)

yang made this for me

HE MADE THIS FOR ME.

This picture tells our story.. Everything has its meaning.. look at it closer and you'll know what it means..;)

FLOW

Last night was a lot of fun.. We were one of the privileged ones who was invited to watch FLOW at Pagcor, Paranaque. It was definitely a fabulous production. It was one of the major productions that you can only watch in Las Vegas. It was a great experience being there sitting with the VIPs in Makati.

The show was full of energy. It was like watching lady marmalade live but with young people performing on stage. Everyone did their best to make the production a successful one..

It was great. it was fun. it was amazing!

by the way.. FLOW was the name of the show..;)

and I just missed myself performing on stage during my elemantary and high school days.. hahahahhaha...;)

when is enough.. enough?

ATTENTION: for joy.. I saw your blog title just now (enough is enough) and I remembered something from the past. hahahha.. so I decided to re-post this entry just because I think it somehow connects to what you have written.. hahaahha!!! peace!

remember? it was us who's talking and asking the question when is enough.. enough?!


here it is..

DATE: JAN. 22, 2008

out of boredom and nothing to talk about me and friend came up with an interesting thing to do. its giving answers and sensible explanations to non-sense questions.. doing it more often gives us a chance of seeing and giving attention to things that we usually ignore. little things that we think cannot affect us but in the long run we end up realizing that it is something that lightens our minds.

my friend once asked me the question.. when is enough.. enough? how can u say it is enough when you really want to pursue it. how can u say enough when you can still hold on? how can u say enough when after a while you still want to try?

well.. there are a lot of things in life that we always want to end up. we always say the word enough.. maybe a thousand times but still seeing yourself imprisoned with those moments. i actually answered her question and said.. enough is enough when people get tired, it is enough when one cannot hold on anymore, it is enough when you are hurt and don't want to feel the same thing again. it is enough when you have nothing to give, enough is when people feels unhappy within a certain thing/situation and that's it! people have enough of everything that causes pain and suffering..

o well.. well.. that was my initial answer but then she raised another question.. she said.. "so how would you know that you are tired? that you cannot hold on anymore, that you have nothing to give (coz people always have something to give, in any kind, in any way) or when can you say that you have enough of everything..? well.. i kept silent for a moment trying to find the answers to those questions. Sad thing though, I end up with a hanging question which i cannot formulate any answers to it..

weeks after that i was able to recall that same question. and the answer just popped into my mind at 3:00 in the morning.. WHEN IS ENOUGH... ENOUGH?

the only thing i can say is.. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH ONLY WHEN YOU ARE BEING UNFAIR TO OTHERS...

i don't know if it really fits the question but that's one thing that i really learned from it...;o)

*hahaaha.. what do u think?!

pressured!

one of the most killing situations of a BUM!

so pressured with all the people around me..

ggrrrr!!

hate the feeling!

..for yang,,

Wondering how everything went so casual
When things may seem so unusual
Two strangers suddenly meet up
By the time you thought it’s just a piece of crap.

It was by accident how we came across
From a path that we were once at a loss
We have known each other by chance
Eventually became close in an instance.

Things were so weird nowadays
And it’s not normal in our case
I am here and you are there
But look how we manage each other.

I may not be sure of what’s inside
But I know it’s not something we should hide
Perhaps, it’s just meant to be that way
Where we both choose to stay.

*rizza*
12.12.2009

what lies ahead?

I don't know why


but..


I'M WORRYING TOO MUCH FOR MY FUTURE..

.DECEMBER.

can you see it?
can you hear it?
can you feel it?

yes! yes! yes! It's December already.
This is my favorite time of the year.

It's cold.
It's colorful.
It's full of preparation.

I just love this season. Though i got no money at hand. I dont know why I'm so excited about it.. It's a month long celebration and i super love it.. i've been waiting for this the whole year..;)

hope you can feel it too.;)

Mag-isip ka Juan!

MAMAMAHAYAG.
SIBILYAN.
SI JUAN.
PILIPINO.

lahat damay-damay na sa isang trahedyang hindi inaasahan.

KATOTOHANAN.
PANGYAYARI.
ELEKSYON.
TRABAHO.

hangad ng bawat taong biktima ng karumal-dumal na krimen.

KAPANGYARIHAN.
KAYAMANAN.
KARANGYAAN.
KASINUNGALINGAN.

Ibang klase rin ang politika dito sa Pilipinas. Parang walang kinakatakutan, walang sinasanto.. may konsensya pa ba ang mga ito?

Akala ko ba malaya ang Pilipinas? Akala ko ba malaya si Juan sa kanyang mga hangarin? Akala ko ba may batas na nagsaaad ng kaligtasan ni Juan? Ngunit parang maling mali ang lahat. Ganito na ba ka-lala ang sitwasyon?

maraming buhay ang nabuwis.. ilan pa ba ang susundan nito? nakikiramay sa lahat ng pamilya, kaibigan at kamag-anak ng mga kaawa-awang biktima.

maisip sana ni Juan ang kanyang mga pagkakamali. hanapin sana muli ang landas na iyong hinangad para sa lahat.. Mag-isip ka Juan para sa iyo at sa kinabukasan.

M.U

Wag ka masyado mag expect. Wala kayong commitment. Pwede ka magselos, pwede ka magtampo pero hindi ka pwedeng magalit. Pwedeng makipag-date sa iba pero wag na magpapaalam. Pwede mo siyang lambingin, pwedeng yakapin at pag nalaman mong may bf/gf na siya, pwede ka umiyak. Pwede ka masaktan pero hindi mo siya pwedeng sumbatan. Dahil wala kang karapatan. Dahil ang M.U. ay isang "MAGULONG USAPAN".

--> eto ang sabi ni pareng BOB ONG

F

ISANG MALAKING TANONG:

Bakit kaya sadyang may mga lalaking pilit na pinamumuka lahat ng babae nila? maxadong proud sa mga babaeng naloloko nila, fini-flirt at bumibigay sa kanila at di naman nila siniseryoso? EGO ba un? o sadyang isang malaking F lang?

F = FEELING MAXADO!
= FEELING GWAPO
= FEELING LAHAT NG BABAE MAGKAKAGUSTO SA KANYA!

IT PISSES ME OF!!! GGGRRR!!!!

both inside me

Empty MIND
nothing to think of
ideas and thoughts
just passing by my head.

Full HEART
feeling everything
feelings and emotions
are all kept inside.

My MIND
My HEART
each in opposite direction
both inside me

b.e.z.

you know what's weird? It's when I shouldn't be remembering you yet I did! I saw you in my dream last night bez. Now I'm bothered if you're doing just fine or do you still have something to tell me that I didn't know?

hhhhmmm.. weird! but now honestly I'm missing the old times when you used to be there always beside me.. the moments when you used to be my only best friend in town! hahha..

I miss you B.E.Z.

hope your doing just fine..;)

Paano bang mag-edit ng oras dito?

Ilang post na ko sa blog na to.
pero di ko pa alam paano ko i-eedit ang orasan dito.


paano ba?

masaya pala talaga ang magsulat

Ang sarap pala talagang mag-sulat. Kelan ko lang inumpisahan ang blog site na to. Masayang ikwento kung anu nangyayari sayo o kaya sa isulat lang ang mga bagay na hindi mo kayang sabihin sa mag taong nagtatanong sayo. Ito ang mundo ng manunulat, wala kang pakealam basta nagsusulat ka dahil yun ang gusto mo.

wala kang pakealam sa spelling.

wala kang pakealam sa grammar.

wala kang pakealam sa anong lenggwahe ang gamitin.

basta ang alam mo lang nagsusulat ka para sa sarili mo. para sa nararamdaman mo at dun mo nakikita na masaya ka talagang nagsusulat.

ayan nag-enjoy ako kaya eto nagsulat ako. hahahha!

2 applications down

Out of motivation I started browsing this site which contains a list of possible companies that I would want myself to be part of. I listed their contact numbers and e-mail addresses as well and went on sending my resume online.

Few hours later i received an e-mail regarding my application.

"Thank you for your interest in us, Mona however, the company has no
opening for your line of expertise. What we are in need of is someone with
Adobe Premier editing skills, Photoshop, etc."

and just a few minutes later i got an e-mail again and it says:

"Thanks for your mail.

At the moment all positions are taken. Please try other production houses.

Thanks and regards"


wow!!! two in a row?! how many more applications left? oh my! this is now for real, this is the real world that almost all of the elders were talking about. Not that easy at it seems but i know one of these days i'll find my place in this universe. you'll see..

Hope to find a job soon..;)

chatter's first meeting

it was just one ordinary day when i went online. Out of boredom i decided to use my anonymous ym i.d to chat with people i really don't know. I started joining in at chat rooms and wrote down " hi people... may matino bang kausap dito?" several times. YM windows were all over my computer screen and some i intentionally ignored. I keep changing rooms hoping to find someone who's good enough to chat with.

After how many minutes of searching this one just popped into my screen and wrote down HI! I was shocked with his YM i.d ( i guess u wouldn't really want to know his YM name), it was not a good one and every girl would be hesitant about it. Though feeling awkward I took time to chat with him.

chat..

chat..

chat..

eventually, something personal came out. (secret!!) hahaha..

anyway, that was our first meeting i'm not pretty sure if its good or bad but i am quite convinced that he's nice and cool i think.

that was what happened yesterday...

today, i went online again just to edit my unidentified messenger. I took some people out of my friend's list who were not related close to me or those whom i've never chatted for years.

Then something popped again on my screen, it was him (the guy from yesterday) asking me if i remember him. ofcourse i do it was just yesterday... hahahah!

Now it was more of a friendly chat and we were like laughing and laughing, taking this chance to get to know each other. Oh my! don't get me wrong, im not yet into this guy, it was just fun talking to him again for the second time though he still appears to be like a life-sized question mark to me. Hahahaha!!!

we'll see what's going to happen next..hhhmmmm...???!!!

best taho in town

Every morning i used to wait for manong taho to pass by our street. This morning i was craving for taho and ran towards the gate when i heard him shout "tahhhooooo!!!!" but when i ran out i wasn't able to catch him.. ggrrrrr!!! he's already gone. poor maria now i need to wait for tomorrow to have a taste of the best taho in town.

10 things i really wanna do

10 things i really wanna do:

10. travel around the philippines / world.
09. wish on a falling star
08. laugh til i drop
07. take pictures
06. dance hip-hop
05. learn how to drive
04. eat my favorite dish
03. watch a movie
02. hang out with some old friends
01. love like its always the first time

-> just a thought..
.mona.